No it's not that I don't really give a shit No i'm just getting good at it And by that I mean just hiding my emotions While i'm going through the motions And I know that you think i'm a hypocrite But it's just devil's advocate For you while you're not around And you're never around anymore And I just thought it would be nice To have someone on my side But no ones on your side When you play both sides alike Oh the things I've tried to hide Are the things I can't deny I go outside and smell the rain Reminds of the good old days I go to class, one that I hate Reminds me of the fucking waste And I know I don't wanna be here But the drugs sure make it easier Now i'm walking home in the pissing rain And all for couple seconds in your brain When the sidewalk was caving in And it hit me hard right there and then That I lost all my ambitions Who I am in transposition You can call this burning out When Im technically knocked out