Well that I guess that is that I am back to believing No ugly deceiving Life hacks Water the plants The dirt was dry and I'm growing As twice as fast as you did try To grow me and shoot me up high But it felt more like suppression So I put up a fight Walls so thick Bolder than lipstick If you're feeling sad Then hold me to that And you asked me Why did you leave if you were never really there Why did I expect you to stay if you were never really there Well I needed to leave cause I was never really there In the first place What's new Country boy Stay glum til a new girl charges ya ego to the sun While I stray far away You still think I'm running from the best thing I had You're wrong in every way But I act like you could be right Cause it makes you feel better Helps you sleep at night And you asked me Why did you leave if you were never really there Why did you expect me to stay if you were never really there Well I needed to leave cause I was never really there My lips were covered I could not make a sound Well I only just discovered Your love was pushing me down No love Felt in your arms Dominated by your words enough That I wasn't worth more than your messed up love I said I needed to leave immediately from this shit hole You've wondered why so often I came off as cold But your indirect attention to turn success into flaws I couldn't live a life feeling so very withdrawn I needed to leave cause I was never really there anymore