Can't sleep, feel like everybody hate me
And I really wouldn't blame 'em
I should feel amazing
But I've never been amazing
Ever since all of the changes
Life about the painful, pain filled moments in the rain, but
It's been difficult to stay tough
Know I didn't say enough
And I know you couldn't wait up
Fell behind and I gave up
But the one thing that I want you to know
I just wanna say my shit and then I promise I'll go
I've been tryna find the words that'll finally show
I'm a little bit more than a boy with no hope
I'm a little bit shit when it comes to love
Not the feeling but the everything else involved
I've been feeling like an enemy, that's my fault
And nobody is a friend to me, they fell off
Don't give a fuck
Let me talk about you and I
Let me talk about the old days when you'd cry
Let me talk about back when we used to try
Way back when we'd take walks under the sky
But you say you're fine, well that's alright
Now can you tell me why the fuck I'm missing you tonight
Can you tell me why the fuck you sing inside my mind
Can you tell me why the fuck that everything feels so, so
Different now
Everybody moved on, except for me
But everything different now
And I know that you gone while I still bleed
So it's all different now
And I know that I'm wrong, but can't you see
That is all different now?
It's so, so different now
(Different now)
(Everything different now)
(So, so different now)
(Different)
Tonight, well, I wrote you an essay for real
I asked you if all of this shit was for real
Like how do you feel, like isn't it weird
To look at my life without a stupid mirror
Well, isn't it clear, yeah, didn't you hear?
That I'm going crazy I lay in my tears
I'm living in fear, I'm thinking it's near
That one fucking day you will never be here
And one fucking day then I'll have had enough
All of the fighting and all of the stuff
That you and I went through and acted all tough
That shit will be gone, I'll no longer be cuffed
But I will be free, and I will become
A shadow of the boy that you really loved
But how did the darkness come out of the sun?
And how is it hardest when you've got the gun?
Let me talk about you and I
Let me talk about the old days when you'd cry
Let me talk about back when we used to try
Way back when we'd take walks under the sky
But you say you're fine, well that's alright
Now can you tell me why the fuck I'm missing you tonight
Can you tell me why the fuck you sing inside my mind
Can you tell me why the fuck that everything feels so, so
Different now
Everybody moved on, except for me
But everything different now
And I know that you gone while I still bleed
So it's all different now
And I know that I'm wrong, but can't you see
That is all different now?
It's so, so different now
(Different now)
(Everything different now)
(So, so different now)
(Different)
Looking back, yeah, you and I were best friends
And I know that I never held my end-up
What I'd do for one chance, but
You gave me millions, didn't you, right?
Acted like I was killing you, didn't you, right?
Said "I love you" in your notebook, didn't you write?
Said "I love you", gave me hope, but didn't we fight?
Now I hang around while you're busy living your life
Yeah, you're living your life. Tell me isn't it nice?
No more up worrying about all of my lies
Yeah, all of my lies, yeah, no more goodbyes
Yeah, this is the price, yeah, isn't it nice?
Yeah, isn't it nice that you better than me?
Life great while I'm sweating in a hundred degrees
My fate begging heaven while I'm on to my knees
Heart locked while I'm living and you're holding the keys
Let me talk about you and I
Let me talk about the old days when you'd cry
Let me talk about back when we used to try
Way back when we'd take walks under the sky
But you say you're fine, well that's alright
Now can you tell me why the fuck I'm missing you tonight
Can you tell me why the fuck you sing inside my mind
Can you tell me why the fuck that everything feels so, so
Different now
Everybody moved on, except for me
But everything different now
And I know that you gone while I still bleed
So it's all different now
And I know that I'm wrong, but can't you see
That is all different now?
It's so, so different now
(Different now)
(Everything different now)
(So, so different now)
(Different)