About to hit the dub club
Why I feel I'm not enough
Got this weight when I wake
Feeling like my time is up
My potentials feeling stuck
Go slow motion feeling rushed
Dove in the open, hoping in boats, roped in a gold one, ain't reel it up
Never been too quick to judge
Never make a scene when I kick the dust
Ever since seventeen I've been in the mud
Spit a quick sixteen when I'm feelin done
Graduated with nineteen still trynna catch up tho
Rainy day under a light pole
Make the right moves, still seeing typos
See my eye inside the storm
Why I feel alright alone
Bounced around the world across the globe
Still feeling the need to find a home
I need me to say I'm proud
Feelings, don't escape me now
Been trying to wash my emotions off
All my fault that it's faded now
Ambition is draining the essence of me
I'm striving for who I am destined to be
I'm running but seeing no progress
I don't do the treadmills it messes with me
Told myself I was gonna smile when I get it
But all I do is I sigh when I'm finished
Made a list it's been sinking in
Still wait till the day where I'm finally wishless
Thought I was but I wasn't
Always butterflies in my stomach
Scared to make a mistake
Pray to God I might be something
Godless fear in front of my feet
Toppled over rinse and repeat
Don't need to be caught in the weeds
Claustrophobe be cautious don't flee
Watchin my peers look at my steps
Running too much getting shortness of breath
Stabbed in the neck foes wished me dead
Make no sense to follow closely
Not in tune with my consciousness
Conflicting thoughts I don't fall asleep
Dark clouds above me it's ominous
Feel like another Jonah lost at sea
Too pressed with the future to embrace what is present
All I got is my artistry
And it's far for me
Binoculars got me obsolete
Lost contentment I'm the one stopping me
Hard to keep
Pressure brought off of me
Often hope I've achieved my fathers dreams
Honestly I'm tired of constant feats
Just wanna watch me be and non cautiously walk in peace