I can't wait to tell you just how cynical I've gotten
Ever since I chose to be the only one that stayed home
I thought the silence would be soothing
When I woke up in the morning
But it seems you robbed my bed of all its comfort
And the rain that used to keep me in is now my only friend
It sings me lullabies whenever I close my eyes
And though I'm short of breath and scared to death of depth
I understand that I've hit rock bottom
But I swear to god I'm trying
How do I sleep at night with your body pressed into my side?
How will I float back to the surface
When you're the only thing that could save me from the riptide?
I lost my shit when I walked out on my front porch
Because the temperature keeps changing
Is it the summer or is It fall?
The leaves are falling while it's snowing
And yet I still wear sun tan lotion
I'm worn right through from this consistent cycle of inconsistency
Sometimes I press my ear against my wall, and I swear I hear you laugh
I don't know how that ever came to be
But if you're trying to communicate, I promise I'm doing great
So please don't worry about all the nightmares I've been having
There's no chance I'll sleep tonight
Without your warmth pressed into my sheets
And how will I live without your passion
Keeping me balanced in my head and on my feet?
And why do I sleep at night
And wake up wondering
Why I can still see the speckles in your eyes?
I lay in my bed, perpetually surrendering
To the overbearing sense of having no fucking life...