When you talked about going home And I realized you were talking About a dorm room in another city My head began to spin It finally clicked that you don't think of this as home And by the way, you dot your I's I can tell if you've been crying I can see right through the subtleties In all of the little things you do Even when I don't want to I'm sorry I don't know how it always comes to this My heart might beat right out of my chest and ride off into the sunset And I'm happy to let things go back to the way they were before But first, you need to know That I'm aware that in my youth I couldn't recognize the truth For what it was until it blew up in my face And though it's true that I'm not new to feeling lost, I must include That I still don't know how the hell I got here in the first place And god I'm afraid that any day I'll lose my will to keep my faith And throw my body down into the Baltic sea And as I plummet I'll be humming that one song that you were drumming On my pillow, while I slept beside your feet Or was that just a dream I think I found a solution I call it never leaving home But I desperately need to warn you I can't do this on my own Lately, I'm trying to stop feeling so caught up In keeping everything to myself Just cause it's always better when I can just drag down somebody else I hope you feel better now