I took on the world when I was young and strong Start to lose heart when it takes too long And without your heart, what can you do? From how I had the feeling, nothing's where it belongs Masters have slaves, and slaves have songs And so I say, "What else can I do?" In the middle of the night, walking in my sleep Trying to untie, something that I need Never felt closer, but still just out of reach It's hard to be brave when your brain's on fire If heaven and earth have conspired To make you pay, more than you owe There's a blizzard in my belly, a fever in my soul Can you tell me is Jehovah, friend or foe? Well there's some things, we just have to know In the middle of the night, walking in my sleep Trying to untie, something that I need Never felt closer, but always out of reach Still I hold a promise like hope holds a dream But I've lost so many battles I forget what it means I would let it go but it won't let go of me Between the pestle and the mortar, the bitterness is crushed And every sweet illusion is turning into dust I don't understand but I'm learning to believe Can you shake your fist at heaven, or blame your God above If he allows the weakness to prove the strength of love I would let him go but he won't let go of me