I've been thinking a lot about the difference between
Knowing what something is and what something means
My hands are shaking
As the debilitating effect of my dependency took place
The nicotine stopped sending answers straight to my brain
And with heavy breathing every piece of reality fell down on me
Now I have all the pieces but I just can't put them back together
I got all the answers in my head
I'm just too afraid to know that I am right
Because there's just something about believing
That's not worth believing
And I know we're trapped in the same reality
But perceived each moment differently
And I have so much to say but I know he don't want to hear them anyway
I know that I'll be talking to myself
I just want to hear it, I just want to hear it out loud
I want your pain infested comfort
I want to wake up and feel like nothing happened
I never felt so desperate, I never felt so alone
I never felt so desperate
I never felt so desperate, I never felt this way before
I never felt so desperate
My shoulder grows so heavy, I can't raise my head anymore
This premeditated pain feels so unfamiliar (I never felt so desperate
I never felt so alone, I never felt so desperate)
I'm just too proud to assume that I can partake in your pain
(I never felt so desperate, I never felt this way before)
In your pain
(I never felt so desperate)
(I never felt so desperate, I never felt so alone)
I don't wanna be all alone
(I never felt so desperate)
(I never felt so desperate, I never felt so alone)
I'm scared to be on my own
(I never felt so desperate)