Can I really chalk it up to bad luck?
My home betrayed me and I've seen too much
Can I really go through my days like this?
I wanna crawl out of my skin
The only thing that feels worse
Than having faith in nobody
Is this sinking feeling that it's all because of me
Can I really chalk it up to my blood?
I've seen the patterns and they call my bluff
Can I really go through my years alone?
The trauma's all I've ever known
The only thing that feels worse
Than having faith in nobody
Is this sinking feeling that it's all because of me
Life is so boring when I know every day is gonna be like this
Think I need some drugs
First I need some friends
Think I'll drink to forget
Will I ever feel comfortable again?
Can I really chalk it up to my brain?
They say I'm depressed but really I'm deranged
Some days I want to suffer
No I want to be better than her
She looks good like me but she can't hurt like me no
She looks good like me but she can't fuck like me
Think I need some time
To bury through my mind
Think I'll ache 'til I die
When my body just doesn't suit me right
And if I had a son
I'd resent him for his power over me
And if I had a daughter I would hide her so she wouldn't have to be...