(Demxntia) Drown me in despair I'm broken, way beyond repair From sulking, over the times that we'd never get back Drunk every night, with cigarette pack But it's only fair that I'm broken, way beyond repair I know that it's all my fault, I'm guilty as charged I'd end it all, but that's not what you'd want So it's hard to bear, 'cause I know you still care But I wished you hated me As much as you tried to But you'd never hated me As much as I do, oh, no, yeah And my only fear for when I'm no longer here Is that you'll find someone else who deserved all your tears I know that sounds selfish, but I just can't help it I've been well prepared To go now, I'll be somewhere You know how I tend to leave all the ones that I love Just to pretend like I won't give a fuck To see what we've build become a ghost town Swallowed by guilt, like my pills, I've broken down Every night I go through withdrawals But it's only right for all of my wrongs I'd be easier to bear, if you never cared But I wished you hated me As much as you tried to But you'd never hated me As much as I do, oh, no And my only fear for when I'm no longer here Is that you'll find someone else who deserved all your tears I know that sounds selfish, but I just can't help it