Jealousy does not become me
Does not make amends
Does not make me perfect
Does not make me friends
Jealousy is my worst habit
Developed effortlessly
Developed without resistance
To cover my failings
Jealousy is not forgiveness
Is not self esteem
Is not confident or
Grateful or gracefully
Jealousy a broken promise
Breaking humanity
Instead of our celebrating
I'll bring you down to your knees
Compare despair, compare despair oh no
Compare despair, compare despair or dont
Unless you win
Jealousy it did surprise me
Appearing haphazardly
Instead of instantly winning
Life kicked me repentantly
Jealousy a natural response
To my entitlement
But I have not ever backed down
And I am not starting yet
Jealousy I picked a battle
Fighting my closest friends
Instead of becoming allies
I smile at untimely ends
Jealousy it turns my stomach
Much like ambition
Motivate by isolating
But compete with everyone
Compare despair, compare despair oh no
Compare despair, compare despair or dont
Unless you win
Jealousy I can't compete
I permeate a desperate air
Jealous me I had a fantasy
Oh but you weren't there
Compare despair, compare despair oh no
Compare despair, compare despair or dont
I won't I won't I won't I wont let go of this
Compare despair, compare despair shit show
Until I win