I'll wake up tonight
Not knowing what's right
Did that happen or did I
Pretend that I had a life
Did I fool you too
Discard and arrest you
I didn't know you were trying
I didn't know you were trying
To understand me
Not use reflexively
I didn't know you were loving
This man who feels he's always dying
These grey lines
Dissolve in time
And leave you with
A self-defined
Or denied
Now it's too late to return
Too late to reclaim what I spurned
The details are all left up to me
To decide if I believe
Am I black or am I white
Am I brave or am I frightened
I don't know where I am going
I don't know who I'm becoming
These grey lines
Dissolve in time
And leave you with
The bottom line
The quintessence
The self refined
Or oversimplified
These grey lines
Dissolve in time
And leave you with
The clearest sign
Of who you were
Before you chose
To obscure the path
That leads to growth
I've chosen this life
Not knowing if I'm right
Rejected the obvious or did I
Act out of bitterness & spite
The choice it was made up for me
Indecision and apathy
I didn't know you could see me
I didn't know I was being