The sleepless nights of wondering and pondering How my world got turned upside-down in a flash of a moment Everything I believed in and wanted to be myself Suddenly became what I feared the most Don't be surprised when I choose to leave The decision wasn't really my own It was made a long time ago Some things can't be unsaid or undone You had it all but it was never enough Betrayed your own flesh and blood Lost the game and put the debt in my name The solitary heir to your kingdom of despair I am the ghost of a 10-year old boy Who died on that day when you went away I cried and I begged and I hoped you would stay Telling myself everything is okay Bloodstains and broken glass among my toys Gave me your pain in trade for my joy Amending, pretending that nothing was wrong In a desolate house a child weeps alone On that night when you turned your wrath against me Because I witnessed your cardhouse of lies fall to the ground How could I forget those words you said and forgive those things you did? You ran away with no trace of repentance to be found As our paths cross and I'm reminded the loss I realize it was the only absolution Drifting away into the oceans of fate We're beyond the point of any redemption