I'm laying on my bedroom floor Left alone with all my thoughts I don't know if I can do this After all I look at old photos and I wonder what she'd think Cause the little girl that's in there she's nothing like me And I don't recognize myself Anymore And the birthdays I would wait for Are now the ones I dread I used to wish that I was older But now I wish I could stop time instead I'll never play mermaids in the pool Or learn to ride a bike again Or walk up to someone new and in seconds have a best friend No more recess No more playing games Not really thinking about anything No more princesses or fairytales The curtains they finally fell They yelled cut Then suddenly I'm forced to face some twisted reality It's all been hitting me since I turned 18 And soon I'll be 20 I didn't think growing up would be this hard It's crazy how life can catch you off guard I guess this is what it is After all They took down our pictures The girls I once considered my sisters I'll never know why Go figure I'll never walk those hallways Or make careless decisions again I guess at some point everything has to come to an end No more window shopping Making plans Inside jokes only we understand I think I just heard the final bell And the curtains they finally fell They yelled cut Then suddenly I'm forced to face some twisted reality It's all been hitting me since I turned 18 And soon I'll be 20 And just like that I'm not the one in the school bus I'm in the car driving behind it Seeing kids live out the same life that I used to live Will I feel this way when I'm 80 Can someone please explain this to me I feel like crying Earth sign Brown eyes My face has hardly changed overtime