What if I'm doomed to never get clean?
What if I take my time, but never find peace?
What if I fool myself, thinkin' I'm alright
But I'm bound by chains of the devil's might?
What if my kindness only goes so far
But it ain't proof I've grown deep down in my heart?
What if I've only loved the things that I've gained?
And when it crumbles, will I then decide to change?
And if I make my bed in hell, will you still be there as well?
If I fall into the night, will the darkness be as light?
What if it turns out I don't have a choice?
What if the truth is I don't have a voice?
And I've been cryin' out hopin' to be heard
Will I be willing to leave all that I've earned?
When I make my bed in hell, will you still be there as well?
When I fall into the night, will the darkness be as light?
And I'm weary reachin' out for a spark
I'm tired wakin' up in the dark
Oh, Jesus, have mercy on my heart
'Cause I've made my bed in hell, but you're still around to tell
That even though I've fallen off my throne
Oh, you've found me, and brought me home
What if I'm doomed to never get clean
By my own merits; by my own good deeds?
But I know the night is the light of grace
'Cause one man became darkness in my place