It eats at me like a fucking disease This anxiety strikes my peace I feel I can't get out, with all these expectations of me Don't take a second for granted That's what's said No way around it, I can't help how I feel Holding onto what is real But what is fucking real Let me out of this hole I'd rather not drag you all along Crying for help, crying for the ones I love I'm privileged i have no reason to be sad But again you don't know what goes on in my head Once the flood begins the water runs The company around starts to feel like none I'm alone Agony leads to violent thoughts, Being a burden makes me not call It's tough to be a man with a gun in Your hand Be strong I'm strong but broken I'm smart but lost Tough to show teeth but i still do You don't know what i'm going through Don't feel sorry Don't feel sorry for me I just want to feel okay As i rot, you think not Like a baby in a hot car You'll never go far