I asked you if you still loved me while we were fucking
Then 25 minutes later you broke up with me
30 minutes later I tried going to sleep on pillows
That smelled like your hair products and that went horribly
I'm having sleeping problems and they become seep-in problems
Cuz they seep in all my other problems and make 'em steeper problems
I taught you how to drive, E brake when the car's rolling back
Now we're hugging goodbye on my blankets
Tears rolling down each other's backs
When you're both depressed and you don't
Leave it on a therapist's couch
Maybe you end up leaving it in your partner's bed
Last night I slept with a video, last night I listened to ambient rain
I cranked up the volume as far as it went
And I wondered have I gone insane?
And then it start raining for real but still all
I could hear was the thoughts and the pain
I will do anything, everything just to not feel like this ever again
Yeah
Yeah
There's tears on my shirt and I wish they would stain
Wish they would burn and I wish they would hurt
Cuz I need to get dragged right up out of my brain
Went to my sister's and I took the train
Wondered if you're meeting someone today
Thoughts of your plans and like where you'll be headed
Make me wish I could be beheaded, oh mane
I know that God walking with me on beats
Strong with a pen but my heart getting weak
We used to hitchhike to see what we'd see
Both our thumbs up like a movie critique
Went by her house just to run into her
See in her face that she really feel hurt
I'll see her momma, her dad or her brother
Or maybe some fucker who fucks on her covers
I'm feeling like fuck it my life in the gutter
I'm gutted, I'm going, it's grueling I shudder
We fought and we fought like we needed Bruce Buffer
In diners we'd sit in the booth there together
Same side of the table like at the Last Supper
But dammit you crossed me I'll never recover
And friends'll just finally get sick of my shit
See that I'm calling and not answer it
That'll be everything that I deserve
Me in my room with just all my words
All of these words that I prioritized over
People who loved me but not for a verse
People who loved me like me right in the moment
But how could they love me for me that's absurd?
I played with chalk on the street by the curb
Guess I'm still at it but lately it hurts
Fuck everybody I gotta just flex
Stare at the treasure map chasing the chest
Treated her like she ain't under the x
And so now I'm just forced to get over my ex
I wish I still could get under my ex
Couldn't we fake it for only a night?
She used to call me before, after flights
Just me and her, our little life
Well what the fuck
What happened to that?
What happened to love?
Or what did I lack?
Well what the fuck
There's no going back
There's nothing for us
Our words got us trapped
Well what the fuck
What happened to that?
(Yeah)
What happened that?
Well what the fuck
No longer intact
There's no going back
There's no going back