I'm just losing time
With my hesitance
As if I'll never learn to speak when I should
Then the time stops
Showing me everything I've ever wanted to be
Until I'll have to face it
Until I'll do what should be done
The affliction
Is it the thing that I deserve?
Could be all I need to be me
Maybe even what I want
But it's definitely my own creation and it ends really soon
What if it ends really soon?
Maybe it ends right now
I hope it ends
Right
Now
Just wait for another life
Just wait for another life
Maybe it will end one time
But I just needed a break
I need so many breaks it breaks me again and makes me worthless
And I stare like I've never had a soul
To the world I know
So I listen
And I try not to be offensive as I usually am
But people still talk to me and I don't really know what to answer
And again I stare, I feel, I speak, I think
I think about how many times will I have to break down to get things right
Nothing makes sense anymore
And it's my last chance to show some decency
I know I can talk when I wanna
I know I can leave when I wanna
But I can't really do anything
When I only have the courage to be a coward