I'm just losing time With my hesitance As if I'll never learn to speak when I should Then the time stops Showing me everything I've ever wanted to be Until I'll have to face it Until I'll do what should be done The affliction Is it the thing that I deserve? Could be all I need to be me Maybe even what I want But it's definitely my own creation and it ends really soon What if it ends really soon? Maybe it ends right now I hope it ends Right Now Just wait for another life Just wait for another life Maybe it will end one time But I just needed a break I need so many breaks it breaks me again and makes me worthless And I stare like I've never had a soul To the world I know So I listen And I try not to be offensive as I usually am But people still talk to me and I don't really know what to answer And again I stare, I feel, I speak, I think I think about how many times will I have to break down to get things right Nothing makes sense anymore And it's my last chance to show some decency I know I can talk when I wanna I know I can leave when I wanna But I can't really do anything When I only have the courage to be a coward