I said I'd do everything to find out how it feels like
And I meant it
At the moment I meant it
I just
I didn't want to lie
I wanted to start screaming
But I couldn't make a sound
And I still meant it
How rotten I feel inside
Just pretend to feel sorry for me
So I can come out
And find out
How useless you see me in your eyes
While there's this liquid in mine
Is it bad that I wanna feel fine?
Is it bad that I wanna feel something?
Joy, sorrow, just let me in
I wouldn't mind from time to time
Next time
There will be no next time
Or maybe
That's how I think I wanna look like
In front of you
You remember when I said I didn't wanna lie?
But before all this I didn't even wanna die
Was it finally too much to handle?
Cause I'm still alive
So pretend you feel sorry for me
Then I can come out
And find out
How useless you see me in your eyes
While there's this liquid in mine
Is it bad that I wanna feel fine?
Is it bad that I wanna feel something?
Joy, sorrow just let me in
I wouldn't mind from time to time
Was I forced to be mean?
I suppose I can't get enough
I just wanted to talk 'bout my future
That's all
Was I forced to be mean?
I suppose I can't get enough
I just wanted to talk 'bout my future
Is it bad that I wanna feel fine?
Is it bad that I wanna feel something?
I've never had so many thoughts in my head
This look at myself makes me sick