Head underneath my pillow
Melting fast like April snow
I try to breathe, but it comes slow
So I make do with what I know
I lament in the pouring rain
I'd rather wash away my pain
Can't spare the time to entertain
Afraid of loss, afraid of change
So I keep lying, lying to myself
Tell myself I don't need help
Lie myself right into hell
Oh, I keep lying, lying to myself
The moon is laughing at me now
Voices echo in and out
I made my peace with a war of doubt
So I tilt my head back underground
My brother took the brunt of it
While I found weakness in my grip
Took nine years to see what I missed
Afraid that I'm too late for this
So I keep lying, lying to myself
Tell myself I don't need help
Lie myself right into hell
Oh, I keep lying, lying to myself