At the end of the day I'm trying to discover who I am I wanna know who I am If I could say whatever I wanted to say If I could write the songs I wanted to write And nobody give a shit It's just hard to be who you want Whenever everybody wants you To be something different And the feeling of disappointing Somebody that I love Just trying to be myself Is one of the most terrifying Things that keeps me up at night I will sit in calls with friends And just be "jolly happy" But I am so scared of losing them I will do anything To keep people that I love around Whenever I need to sacrifice Because that's where I get my own fuel That's where I get my freedom That's where I am myself I don't need to put myself On the back-burner Just so I can be closer with other people That, at any point, can just say "No" "I don't- I don't wanna be your friend anymore" "I don't wanna talk to you" "I don't wanna hang out with you" "I don't love you anymore" And it's terrifying to think about The fact that people can just leave like that