Hey
I know it's been a long time the devil on my shoulder's been abusing me
Hey
I know it's been a long ride but these thoughts in my mind have been moving me
Hey
I know its been a long climb but to summit this is something that is new to me
Hey
I know its been a long grind but the clock steady ticking on this music dream
Picture the time
2009
When I believed that I'd be famous off the lamest of rhymes
And I believed that I would make it so I'm spending my time
Perfecting a line
Scribbling and stay on the grind
While my homies getting faded
I was staying inside
Flippin' syllables and samples off whatever i'd find
Had a mansion that I'd built in my mind
Yeah
And off garageband I'd park the lamborghinis in line
I was printing off lyrics from all my idols
And highlighting their verses like grandma with the bible
I stayed finding my calling i never needed a tile
I told momma I got it just bear with me for awhile
Yeah
Cudi dropped End of day and I felt that shit
Made me feel less alone in the cell that is
Life
So I grabbed the pen to write
And I swore I'd make the music
That encourage y'all to try anything
Hey
I know it's been a long time the devil on my shoulder's been abusing me
Hey
I know it's been a long ride but these thoughts in my mind have been moving me
Hey
I know its been a long climb but to summit this is something that is new to me
Hey
I know its been a long grind but the clock steady ticking on this music dream
I'm like
I been feeling down right now
I been feeling down
I been feeling Doubt right now
Why am I feeling all this doubt right now?
I been feeling down right now
I been feeling down
I been feeling Doubt right now
Why am I feeling all this doubt right now?
Picture the time
2010
I still believed that I could do it so I picked up a pen
I would jam to not afraid and then pretend I was Em
Airplane shooting stars and I thought I was him
All the Time I would hear that Its all in my head
All my friends making friends
While I sat on my bed
Yeah
But I believed I had a bigger calling
I wore my heart on my sleeve
My silly band was performing
For friends and the family
Fulfilling my vanity
Apparently
I thought that I had it until they bury me
I guarantee
No body i see compare to me
I tried to tell em they hate me because they scared of me
They always said I'd never rap cause I'm too white and wild
If you wanna be lit you gotta be black and mild
So I started acting arrogant and shit
If they're gonna hate me anyway
Ill act like I don't care a bit
And at that time I lost myself
I would scream into a mic that I bought myself
I would tell them all lies about the cards I'm dealt
I would buy every view because I don't need help
If the mic grows soft then I won't excel
To XXL my sights set I been set sail
I can't exhale
Can't even sleep or they'll pass me
About the same time I discovered Great Gatsby
Picture the time 2018
I had finally made a name up in this musical scene
Then I went and met a girl
And she was all I could see
Until she left me in the dust
And I couldn't believe
That somebody didn't see me for this wonderful thing
And so I did what I do best and I doubled a beat
A couple verses outta show her that no man can compete
But when the rubble cleared I'm puzzled cause the trouble was me
Who am I to call her out?
Daily double I'm a loser when I lose what I'm about
Imma crucify myself
And admit that I was wrong
Wrote a song just to shoot below the belt
I couldn't separate the who I am and how I felt
I looked into the mirror and I didn't see myself
All I saw was a pissed off rapper needing help
So I checked myself into therapy
Cause somewhere along the line
I said no one could compare to me
Yeah
Picture the time
When Jonah was fine
A loner who alone with his thoughts
And Copious time
Composure just to keep it on lock
And stay on the grind
I never thought I'd be a man who hurts with words that he rhymes
I was building people up and then I'd empty the clip
Who could forget?
I was once the rudest of kids
We all make mistakes
I'd rather be a nobody than be famous for hate
It's Yung Gatsb7
Hey
I know it's been a long time the devil on my shoulder's been abusing me
Hey
I know it's been a long ride but these thoughts in my mind have been moving me
Hey
I know its been a long climb but to summit this is something that is new to me
Hey
I know its been a long grind but the clock steady ticking on this music dream