I see you standing in the doorway looking out
Did someone tell you?
How do you always know when I've arrived?
I try casually play it cool as I approach the steps up to meet you
But there's no hiding how much time's gone by
There's no way to replace
All the years gone to waste
I wrestle tears into a smile on my face
I'm hiding behind the role
I play for you but it's all for show
The truth is I've never been so low
I'm lying to everyone
It's killing me, what will I become
If I can't live with the things I've done?
She says, "I can't believe your here, you never told me you were near
Never thought you'd reappear
I know your sister will be glad you're back"
She says, "I think about the night you left and all the things I said
Should've held you close instead
You're nothing like your father, you know that"
There's no way to replace
All the year's gone to waste
I tell you not to worry everything's ok
I'm hiding behind the role
I play for you but it's all for show
The truth is I've never been so low
I'm lying to everyone
It's killing me, what will I become
If I can't live with the things I've done?
I hear you running up the stairway, calling out, "Hey mom, who is it?"
You freeze in place when you see it's me
I try to say hello but I dunno why I can't seem to speak
Not the kid you used to be
I guess I lost you in a memory
There's no way to replace
All the year's gone to waste
I don't deserve to feel of the warmth of your embrace
I'm hiding behind the role
I play for you but it's all for show
The truth is I've never been so low
I'm lying to everyone
It's killing me, what will I become
If I can't live with the things I've done?