I've been fighting myself
Young, dumb, having fun
Wasn't trying to delve real deep
To the seed
To the root
Had to branch out
Had to move like Groot
Tried to take the Rocket
Too impatient for the stairs
Looking back realize
What we was chasing it was air
Round table inner demons
It be Jason in the chair
Freddy in the chair
All my insecurities were hidden in the lair
It meant everything but I pretend I didn't care
Tried to fit in I was so unprepared
You know what it's like when you fight back tears
When you finally cry out for help
But nobody hears
And Your body bears
The weight of the world on your shoulders
The dreams that they sold us
Were merely illusions
The game chose me I
Didn't have to choose it
This is for the little bit of hope
When you losing
Hold up, yeah, let me tell 'em
I've been bending my intentions in wicked directions
Hiding my intent in tents
My innocence dying in a sense
Soul divided
My eyes growing dull they blinded
I wonder why?
I'm fighting and fighting my demons and feelings
I'm tryna defeat 'em
Or maybe just trying to feed 'em?
I'm deep in the heart of war
I can't take that many more rounds
Getting pounded
And I'm down for the count and
I don't know if I will rise from the ground
(Man you gotta have have faith
You ain't gotta keep that frown)
From my face, can I take it off?
(Please take it off and then call on the Lord
He will never let you fall)
Is he really gonna save me from my situation?
(Yes)
Even though I'm the one that got me in this
(Mess)
Oh that's really good hear
Lord please save me from my sins
Before they kill me
Man I really need forgiveness
I need healing
I need healing
Here I am no façade I'm peeling
Back all the layers I'm desperate
I don't really care who stares I'm kneeling
Begging the Lord to show me the way
The way out of my flesh
The way out of my head
Running away from the way that leads to my death
I feel the weight on my chest
Look to God and take a deep breath
No more chasing empty chests
Was chasing the air
Runnin' round in circles
Was wasting away
It's amazing to wake up
And see all the time I wasted
School of the Hard Knocks
I aced it
Now the brand new day I'll face it
With a smile on my face
And fire in my bones
Let faith guide me
The fork in the road will lead me home
Go!
This the start of the journey
Finna hit the ground running
And won't stop 'til they bury me
Gotta hurry and not worry 'bout the flurry of arrows tryna hurt me
The enemy tryna murder me
But I cannot desert the king
I'm tryna gain the crown of life
The white robes
To gain the prize
I gotta walk on tightropes
But I know Christ will get me through the fire
Gotta keep on going even when I'm tired
Feeling ready to retire, yeah
We can take it back to Eden back to Adam and Eve
What might look appetizing is really wicked and we
Never know the real intention of another
Even when we treat each other like a sister and a brother
So I gotta keep my eyes open
Still looking for myself
Finding out that I am really like nobody else
Life is a battle, the light and the dark
When you realize it, that's when your journey begins