I'll fail myself just one more time Fuck I'll fail myself just one more time So I crush another pill and sail to heaven I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead Eyes closed, never asleep Itching my skin can't believe this is me Wasting away like I've wasted my time Always pushing away those who value my life (Hey) I just don't feel right sometimes I don't feel safe so I choose to spend another night on my own (Ahh) Didn't think that you'd ever get it Never felt ok so I said man fuck it Put my neck on the line kept my head in the clouds And I saw that the weather was still shit And now I'm up here fucked all alone Just how I wanted to be, I'm alone So I crawl to the bathroom, it's me in the mirror, I ask myself 'Who the fuck is this?' Fuck You've failed yourself just one more time Dropped another pill and sailed to heaven I don't feel like I'll ever be alive again Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead When what happens at home stays at home Then you know there is no-one to see if your body is cold And your lips are as blue as your soul If your tongue is sunk in at the back of your throat If the spasms were fun, if there's bile on the rug If there's anything you could have done All these questions I've asked myself over and over Oh fuck this shit pass me the gun, I'm so done I think it's time to kick this shit I think I need out of this mess But I know that I'll miss all the warmth And the itch and the break from the stress But one last time I roll the dice Gamble again with my fucking life I know that I've lost and I'll lose again Lose again and again and again I'll fail myself just one more time So I crush another pill and sail to heaven I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead I'll fail myself just one more time So I crush another pill and sail to heaven I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead I'll fail myself just one more time So I crush another pill and sail to heaven I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead I'll fail myself just one more time So I crush another pill and sail to heaven I don't feel like I wanna feel alive again Just numb the pain and forget I'm not dead