I open my eyes for one last time
Returning to the past
I've passed through this life filled of disgust
I know there is no solace
Another day is fading into nothing
Thoughts slip through the sleeping sickness that left beneath my skin
Waves of faintness crush my face
Buried in the depths of my solitude I'm sinking in disgust
I get back to all these days when I rot inside myself
Sleep eats my eyes
I feel words are burning my throat
I remember every single thought that turned to these words
From the hate I've felt through all these years
Tied to the ceiling
Can't cut the rope that holds my past
I'm almost dead
Words that I scream can't leave my lungs
Oh, I am so addicted to all these memories that drowned and left to rot
There is one word I can describe my so called life: Loneliness
I'd like to fall to my knees but they are crippled and broken
Infected by a heart disease
I choke and choke and choke and
Memories reflect the other side of my decisions
Choices has been made, the shining sun is only a vision
While my weary legs grow into the floor
Everything I've denied has turned back to my eyes
Wounds are still bleeding and I stay in the gloom and pray for the other life
Cutting me down
Cutting deep
I get back to all these days when I rot inside myself
Sleep eats my eyes
I feel words are burning my throat
I remember every single thought that turned to these words
From the hate I've felt through all these years
Decaying senses sink into my bones
As death embraces my life
I swear I feel how needles tear my lungs
I can't deny another disappointment
So was it worth it?
Live all this life to release these words that were pressed by my dead arms?
I exist like a dead illusion
Nothing left for me and nothing left of me
Words burn my throat
I'm so weak and all I had is now lost