I open my eyes for one last time Returning to the past I've passed through this life filled of disgust I know there is no solace Another day is fading into nothing Thoughts slip through the sleeping sickness that left beneath my skin Waves of faintness crush my face Buried in the depths of my solitude I'm sinking in disgust I get back to all these days when I rot inside myself Sleep eats my eyes I feel words are burning my throat I remember every single thought that turned to these words From the hate I've felt through all these years Tied to the ceiling Can't cut the rope that holds my past I'm almost dead Words that I scream can't leave my lungs Oh, I am so addicted to all these memories that drowned and left to rot There is one word I can describe my so called life: Loneliness I'd like to fall to my knees but they are crippled and broken Infected by a heart disease I choke and choke and choke and Memories reflect the other side of my decisions Choices has been made, the shining sun is only a vision While my weary legs grow into the floor Everything I've denied has turned back to my eyes Wounds are still bleeding and I stay in the gloom and pray for the other life Cutting me down Cutting deep I get back to all these days when I rot inside myself Sleep eats my eyes I feel words are burning my throat I remember every single thought that turned to these words From the hate I've felt through all these years Decaying senses sink into my bones As death embraces my life I swear I feel how needles tear my lungs I can't deny another disappointment So was it worth it? Live all this life to release these words that were pressed by my dead arms? I exist like a dead illusion Nothing left for me and nothing left of me Words burn my throat I'm so weak and all I had is now lost