I wake up, I wake up next to you like nothings changed I just need some time, I need some time to believe we're the same I confess I never made mistakes until I made one for you If I don't make a choice Then these choices make me I can't believe this is how it's gotta, how it's gotta be Some days I admit that I think about leaving I can't be the one to help when it's help I've been needing I drift out of my lane begging for a crash Closing my eyes I brace myself for impact I can't be the one that you need I can't be who you want me to be If I don't make a choice Then these choices make me I can't believe this is how it's gotta, how it's gotta be I want to be with you but I don't want to be here Would I be happier alone or am I just scared Sometimes I carry weight just to pick it up No matter how much it has never been enough I think I'm building my casket I'm building my grave Too bad it's so far away I want to go back and I only have myself to blame It will never be the same, it will never be the same If I don't make a choice Then these choices make me I can't believe this is how it's gotta, how it's gotta be