It was the warmest 3rd of December I remember The trees were brown as the bottom of my boots A little time out myself, cause today I'm meaner than hell Take a while to sit and think about the truth Today it just don't feel much like Christmas No ribbon's gonna wrap this regret No empty apology will make any change in me It's been too long taking these steps It's been a heavy burden I've laid on my family A load where I should carry all the weight Now I can't see my baby's eyes, through all her mother's cries It's not enough to say it was a mistake I never meant for life to turn so sharply It still feels like the blink of an eye But I'm heading on in years and still battling the same ole fears It's surely time to stop and ask myself why There's always more questions than I have answers And today is no damn different than the rest I've proven once again I'm no measure of a man Though I've seen in my time, some of the best It was the warmest 3rd of December I remember The trees were brown as the bottom of my boots A little time out myself, cause today I'm meaner than hell Take a while to sit and think about the truth