How could you ever love a dirty man?
This garbage came and stained my hands.
I'm filthy, that's the sad fucking truth
I'm no good for you.
I hope you're not embarrassed of my faults,
The failures that I engulfed,
Indulged but I was starving for you
Split this bottle in two.
How'd you find a lifeline
As long as the eastern coast?
I'll let you down eventually
But thanks for keeping me afloat.
Every day I missed you,
Every night I waited for,
Every night I stayed awake,
Hoping you'd say, "I love you more."
How could you consider me as family?
I abandoned every single need.
It's hard to give what I never had
And receive what I lack.
I fucked up first but I'll never admit,
All this pain and this hurt and I still can't feel shit.
Cause when I got myself termed my feelings went with
Along with pride and an urn to put myself in.
I want to burn the shoes that touched the ground when I ran away.
It's not their fault but god damn fuck; I can't help but blame them.
I miss our walks and all the talks after 11 hour shifts.
Cause that was the first time I felt like I belonged.
Every day I miss you,
Every night I'm waiting for
Every night I stay awake,
Hoping you'll say I need you more.
Every day I missed you,
Every night I waited for
Every night I stayed awake,
Hoping you'd say to come back home.