Pulling sutures from my wounds
To preserve the source of grief
That will keep me in the place
That I never wished to leave
My loved ones gather and lead an exodus
I'm rendered helpless as this disintegrates
Slipping through my fingers
Like holding on to smoke
Without warning confluence comes to an end
A merciless disposition I accept
Still I mourn every absence every loss
As I am left chasing ashes in the wind
Slipping through my fingers
Like holding on to smoke
As halcyon days fade
Their lives begin to flourish in my wake
Scratching at the surface for an answer out of reach
I watched this fall apart in silent company
I mimic your decision by severing my limbs
Yet I'm the only one who feels a phantom pain
The comfort recedes
As I exist in all that is missing
You're given no blame
I understand the burden is mine alone
And still I fixate
As I cling to an empty embrace
There is only absence
There is only loss