On the last one kept it real
This album I'm just really tryna show you how it feel
When your demons back from work and they just got some time to kill
Told you last album that I was hearing spirits
Sometimes I wonder if possessions how you get the lyrics
2019 I'd sell my soul you know so you could hear this
Just to hear a proud of you the things I'd do for mama dearest
2005 that was Atlanta I was at my purest
Dad could never pick me up and I would wait but always knew it
Grandma called me trouble child internalized and didn't review it
Lots of things that went unchecked not knowing what their words influenced
I just wanna watch the world burn could you keep it down
Should of never told you I was tryna be your keeper now
Tried to rekindle here with a friend I used to keep around
And somehow there's nothing wrong between us when we talked it out
Found out later he wrote my name down and wished me out
Wished an early death on me and all the things we dreams we talked about
I'm finna drink this whole thing for you and make it easy now
I won't act like I'm self righteous
Know my little sisters wouldn't even love me in the slightest so
You could paint me blacker if you wanted and feel entitled
I'm a deadbeat brother, cousin please insert a title
In pain and it's unbridled
Heaven don't seem like a place for me I put that on the Bible
Man this world is not a place for me I tried to take the high road
But I drink know and I spiral I accept it with my eyes closed
Don't know why I be feelin' this shit significant or why you even listenin'
Or why my god would punish me with passion man it's cripplin'
Like really look deep in my eyes you probably see it dwindlin'
I'm keeping up appearances
Two years ago my mom and me had finally closed the distancing
She heard me out and pitching in and in the midst of that I'm losing faith in its sickenin'