I can't control the way I feel
And as the candle burns I waste another year
Spending time trapped in this bubble that I've built
It's not the situation I thought I'd ever be in,
It's not for me, it's not for us
Until I hold on to this bottle
And drink myself to death in my friend's office
My therapy to calm me down stresses you out
And you're so sick of saying it out loud
Because it seems I'm a slow learner,
I'm like a throne with no pretender,
I head back home trying to fix my longest nights
It feels so odd when you are not here,
Few years ago in fact we couldn't be more near
What has changed and what I've missed along the way?
Has the "black & white approach" just turned into gray?
Well, what a shame...
The tide is dragging me as I have never tied the knots
Cause I don't seem to be connected with your thoughts
You have done so much for me
And we have sailed through seas of any kind
Let's get through this weird December, joining forces for the better
You expect from me to keep my word in my dark times