Heretic's fork under my chin I don't want to hurt myself again A silent betrayal A taste of paradise My hand unsteady with the candle and the knife. forgotten pleasure Remembered pain Dissolving the marrow Relapse into the haze Corrupted image Inverted face Deny all of the gifts you offer me I know this feeling is A poison Slipping Into your vision of what is right Change your mind Change your mind Change your mind and make your choice Real pain or true suffering?