When I went down to the smoke shop to buy myself a torch I wonder if they knew what I would use it for I wonder if it's really fucking obvious Cause I broke it before I walked out the door But I didn't notice that I did until I got back home So I'm killing all my lighters and my thumb I'm running out of luck and I don't give a fuck So I'll smoke up until my face is numb I wonder what I look like from the outside If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high I think I might succumb to paranoia I haven't slept or eaten for three days I don't know who but someone's out to get me I am a fucking disgrace I think I might give in and be a tweaker I could go insane and that would be the end But it hurt me when someone I loved did just that And I could never do that to my friends I wonder what I look like from the outside If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high I hope my roommate doesn't know What I'm fucking doing in our shared home I'm rewiring my brain into A concoction of stimulants and brain stew My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed Dried up and bulging out my skull My mouth is dry my face is numb Fucked up and spun out in my room I wonder what I look like from the outside If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high I wonder what I look like from the outside If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high