If there is a hell It filters through its neverending shades of green And when it turns on those rains It mutes it all to grey If there is a hell Its only life support is an idle screen But to unplug is to spill a restless world at unset knees If there is a hell It always stares back through the same new cracks And its every face seems worn and stale and overplayed If there is a hell It rings through wires and into my head It asks me where and how and why I just don't try But how can I explain When all I've been is blinded These words do talk These heads do turn But yet it's probably worthless I'm not the one I didn't want this And whether it's chemical, emotional, physical It doesn't mean shit If there is a hell There must be a heaven And if just once It shined right through Perhaps I'd try But it's only there So the mind can fake it And it seems that All its innocence Has all but drowned And sometimes it calls Through the submerged distance And as its glimmers Fade to black The depths seem undone But the only way to dive Is through their engines And while they always take the plunge I've learned to stand aside And leave them to collide Since I'm not the one I didn't want this And there is a hell I had it all made