This is not what I need
Not what I want
I try to let go
But it somehow still haunts
This pain inside of me
Is all that I can see
Foggy
Foggy
Everything is foggy
I try to be me
But I'm only here partly
Cause there's a side of me that I keep to myself
It's best I lock it all away,
In a box up on the shelf
Probably got a couple screws loose
Anxiety hang me up to dry
Panic the rope to my noose
Wear my heart on my sleeve
Like some ink, tattoos
So indecisive never know which path to choose
Ya, stuck in a maze
I've been living life in a haze
Stuck on repeat trapped in my ways
If life's the game I'm gonna play
Cause I ain't been living life cause I'm afraid to lose it
Living doesn't mean you're alive don't get it confused with
Distractions, inaction, and medication
Gotta safeguard myself, some preservation
This is not what I need
Not what I want
I try to let go
But it somehow still haunts
This pain inside of me
Is all that I can see
Setting myself up for disaster
Sabotage
It's sabotage
I'm running, and gunning
Tryna get away
Tryna find (find)
A place (place)
Where I feel safe
Paranoia
The cage
Got me locked away
Living in fear of me dying today
I know
That we
Can make it through
We'll make it through
Call me (call me)
If you need me
I will find you
I promise you
Not gonna let you fall without a fight
Gonna go until the final round
When the enemy tries to knock you down
I'll pick you up back off the ground
Cause this walk can turn into a crawl
You can burn out like a cigarette
Through all these ups and downs
I cling to hope and nothing less
This is not what I need
Not what I want
I try to let go
But it somehow still haunts
This pain inside of me
Is all that I can see
Setting myself up for disaster
Sabotage
It's sabotage