When you get a taste
Of the life you crave
But the bed you made
Starts feeling like a hearse
It's a fitting curse
That the dream you chase
Just leaves you feeling worse
The writing gets painful
'Cause you built this from the dirt
And the songs you're playing
Over and over never seem to work
When you're falling short
Try to build it up
And let the feeling ride
I never held so hard onto the
Things that keep me grounded
'Cause I've gotten used to running away
You said it wouldn't be easy
And I didn't believe you
Now I see firsthand why
I feel disconnected
With an empty room
And a 15 hour drive
We're living city to city
I'll be gone 'til June
While my loved ones pass me by
I always thought I was ready
Well I tried
So fucking hard
But letting go is
Never what it takes
To break the spell of giving
In to what you think of me
The writing, it gets painful
When you're asking me to stay
'Cause the song keeps
Playing over and over
Begging me
I never held so hard onto the
Things that keep me grounded
'Cause I've gotten used to running away
You said it wouldn't be easy
And I didn't believe you
Now I see firsthand why
I feel disconnected
Your heart says warm Decembers
But I'm still stuck in May
How can i be there for you
When I'm here for me?
I never held so hard onto the
Things that keep me grounded
'Cause I've gotten used to running away
You said it wouldn't be easy
And I didn't believe you
Now I see firsthand why
I feel disconnected