How many times can I look at myself and say You're in the right direction, you feel okay I can see miles ahead But I still look back instead ♪ A victim of a dream that I had too early Ingrained since birth Nothing deterred me I found what I love And let it kill me A blessing, a curse It's all consuming Had a dream that felt so real I could see you like you never left Had you for fifteen short years But it's been a whole decade since I should go outside more I should see my father All this guilt in the back of my mind Not enough to bother I'm feeling lost again Anxiety creeping in Somehow I think that you'd have the answers You said I'd do bigger things I hope this is what you mean Fill in the void with smoke and adoration Kill for a moment of peace An original thought There's the life that I want And the one that I've got I'm feeling lost again It's all in my head I know ♪ It's the way you looked at me Like you couldn't get enough of The little things I'd say Without a second thought but I know it's not your fault I see clearly now And what I don't say out loud I still miss you I'm feeling lost again Anxiety creeping in Somehow I think that you'd have the answers You said I'd do bigger things I hope this is what you mean Fill in the void with smoke and adoration Kill for a moment of peace An original thought There's the life that I want And the one that I've got I'm feeling lost again It's all in my head I know