My sins and vices Lay in a puddle of my blood I miss the new me Disguise the poisen with the love I'm sick of all of this Just wanna feel like myself Don't know who to call right now Singing to myself a cry for help You wouldn't understand But it's okay I don't blame you It's so damn complicated I just hope you know I care for you And if I have to leave one day Promise you it will all be all okay If I have to leave one day Don't stay awake just pray I'm tryna find my way to you But these skies they feel so blue I know that it's all up in my mind I feel confined by wasted time Tryna live with all this pain When I should be tryna change Know that it's all up in my mind Feeding me lies from time to time I keep giving my all Wake up still depressed from the night before Tried giving you my heart I think I need it more Call me selfish and that I'm just a piece of shit It doesn't matter in the end when the lights get dim You never needed me the way I needed you Don't wanna look in your eyes because it's all see through Popping up by surprise acting like we're still cool I still wanna die baby it's not nothing new Promise I wouldn't cry anymore but it's all I do yeah it's all I do Geronimo I'm standing over the edge again Don't wanna go and everyone says I'm a pessimist I can't help it it's all I'm good at and ever known I'm okay where I'm at right now I don't think that I'm coming home I'm tryna find my way to you But these skies they feel so blue I know that it's all up in my mind I feel confined by wasted time Tryna live with all this pain When I should be tryna change Know that it's all up in my mind Feeding me lies from time to time