While iÂ'm / working to afford to have fun with you iÂ'm distracted To / stillness by the thinking of you from beach to top mountains Paula this / indistinguished suburb grinds my sleep teeth to ruin & powder You know it to be / true you heard it held me woke me close whispered how itÂ'll Be soon you said / worry baby sleepy head Cut back to / me young and unpressured in contrast to aunts and to uncles 8 & 10 / older at the cusp of adulthood away walk from play time I knew then of / those days gold status how theyÂ'd look back to fix their hearts worn And yet here i am write of when i had so many they were of no value when Laid unnumbered end to end / but itÂ's not getting any good ThatÂ's a bandage / that weÂ've been using Best of a decade / not while weÂ're here in secaucus bound LetÂ's stop pretending / in never endings Another decade / or until weÂ're out of the hope you found LetÂ's abandon / this house to camden Messed up a decade / letÂ's get away from these home and towns Cause somethingÂ's missing / we hide by kissing Rest up a decade / weÂ'll need our strength to escape this town CanÂ't tell myself from hopes iÂ've drowned / canÂ't tear myself from this safety town CanÂ't tell each other from stupid clowns