How i'm spending all my nights? I been crying on the floor
Satan waiting for my death, and he been knockin' on my door
Looking all around me, got nobody to blame
Yet the time keeps changing, but the story's the same
Now yeah, now what the hell you tryna say to me?
Just hold my hand, grab me tight, and tell me you believe in me
Hold my hand, grab me tight, and tell me you believe
Can you tell me you believe
Don't tell me you just wanna leave
Don't tell me you just wanna bleed
Looking for someone I can lead
Fuck imma lead myself, it's only me swallowing keys yeah
Don't tell me that you don't believe
Don't tell me you're not loving me
Looking for someone I can be
Looking for someone that ain't me
And I'm back into reality, to keep my mind from driftin'
Ain't no time to feel sorry, I know I'm never helpin'
All my thoughts harassing me, I know I cannot miss 'em
I been dying, sinning, at the cost of all my health
I thought "I'm doing well!", I'm back to bad habits
There's some shame in my faults, now I'm losing all my magic
There's some energy you pass, and that shit is really massive
And there's even some days, when even I can't fuckin' match it
Don't tell me you just wanna leave
Don't tell me you just wanna bleed
Looking for someone I can lead
Fuck imma lead myself, it's only me swallowing keys yeah
Don't tell me that you don't believe
Don't tell me you're not loving me
Looking for someone I can be
Looking for someone that ain't me
I used to love the mornings, make it through another night
And I'd open up my window, gazing into all the light
Now I wake up in the mornings with some thoughts and some despair
I'm drained out of all my energy, can not matter if you're there
I'm down here on rock bottom, feeling lost and so alone
You're up there in my mind, feeling like you've found a home
Stuck in a place where anything is out of sight
I'm tryna find a reason to stay, but nothing seems alright
Don't tell me you just wanna leave
Don't tell me you just wanna bleed
Looking for someone I can lead
Fuck imma lead myself, it's only me swallowing keys yeah
Don't tell me that you don't believe
Don't tell me you're not loving me
Looking for someone I can be
Looking for someone that ain't me
I can't wait to see the grass that is on the other side
But today, I don't need it, I'm so grateful what is mine
Finding faith in my family, faith in all my friends
Angels round me in the purgatory, know this is my end
We bloom in June, but truthfully... The tune we speak is falling off
The rose we picked is drying up, I mean, I've really tried enough
To give you all my hidden love, I'm giving up
It's all because I fell for you
I wish that things just never ended
What a pitiful wish
Too many things kept bottled up
We're out of springs, so bottoms up
We kill the king, like donald duck
We kill the pig, like donald trump
It's our fault there's an apocalypse?
No fuck that, they plant the whips
They pushing chips, and they all in
Our downfall, they called it
But all that matters is your lips
Your blue eyes, and your hips
We don't even gotta read the script
Cuz we bound to lose just like the knicks
Don't tell me you just wanna leave
Don't tell me you just wanna bleed
Looking for someone I can lead
Fuck imma lead myself, it's only me swallowing keys yeah
Don't tell me that you don't believe
Don't tell me you're not loving me
Looking for someone I can be
Looking for someone that ain't me
Looking for someone that ain't me, no