He pulling me back to earth damn, guess he has a plan
I've been feeling better but that shit not gonna stand
Go a step forwards step back in quicksand
Red round the eyes again in Milan
Twist off the bottle cap time to relapse, boo
Foot down on throttle crash living life fast, woo
Bundy or the Pink Gin we working like LinkedIn
Not on ourselves though more fitting in sheep skin
Last week I saw the man in mirror tried to change him
Hit peak fell back to the liquor now I'm faded
Pussy weed and vices hinder-ing my paces
Going through phases new faces like Mac
I been known the feeling that come, when I'm sober
Intensity I'm needing to numb, I say no sir
Curving burdens worsen demons lurking
Pull the curtain person there is hurting
Life so much better with some liquor in my cup
Working on myself never really was enough
Life so much better with some liquor in my cup
Working on myself never really was enough
Drunk off the rum love it when I'm numb
Life ain't better so just pour another up
Falling further, all this hurt ya
But help the short term pain
Waiter server, pass the bourbon
Let me inebriate
Falling further, all this hurt ya
But help the short term pain
Waiter server, pass the bourbon
Let me inebriate
Brain and heart conflicted, I ain't getting no feedback
Everyday I'm tripping, need get on my feet bad
Self care should be first on the menu
But there's so much shit I need to tend to
Wanna give it all a fix but I just can't for shit
I just rant and bitch I just can't admit
All the worse shit about me so downing
All this alcohol is sweeter surrounding
Give me fat lamb fat plans mad man that's where I'm at man
Capping yapping at man I'm fucking scatting
Walls of guilt closing in fore the drinks pouring in
Wake up and notice it coming in
Go again
I stress to you that I wanted to change
But tryna self help made me go insane
Giving in to my demonic ways
Grab another drank, make it go away