It's getting harder than ever to Keep it together I just wanna give up Nobody checking on me when I'm fighting my demons They thinking I'm real tough Man I got problems I keep to myself But lately I cannot Conceal them So they bleed outta the pen when I'm writing my sins Man I just kill 'em I Kill 'em all of the self doubt I followed my dreams and they bailed out They gave up on me when I stand out But I kept it real with no hand outs In the struggle Still beating the system Not a statistic I been a victim A product of where i been living Need a physic to see my vision Call me vangough the way I paint pictures You can see the hurt in my fixtures Really wanna be a light my listeners I write these verses down like they scriptures How I fight God and Satan at the same time Never Been afraid when I faced odds Know the out come when pain dies Lucy haunting me like she James Bond Know the out come when pain dies Never Been afraid when I faced odds How I fight God and Satan Lucy haunting me call her James Bond Know the out come when pain dies Never Been afraid when I faced odds How I fight God and Satan Lucy haunting me she James Bond