First loss I ever felt was fat
Ryan from the hood
Too embarrassed sneaking out of class crying when I could
I was only sixteen
Lonnie died a year later
Went from hooping at the Y to asking God why'd you take him
Then what
Two suicides the same week
Mariah and Tails
That's the moment that changed me
I was haunted by them thoughts
Can't talk can't sleep
We was only kids fighting demons
This pain deep
Hoping I ain't have the same fate
Initials on a nameplate but the chain fake
R.I.P shirts
Repping under stress
But couldn't nothing prepare me for what was coming next
Two of my close thugs murdered in cold blood
We might pull a trigger
We're not pulling a plug
I was at the hospital with Swift praying he
Pulled through
Had a dream about doc when he died
Awakened by that phone call thought the shit was a lie
He called back confirming it and I crumbled inside
Blood in my eyes seeing red want them all dead
It's been a minute but I'm dusting off these cobwebs
Paranoid because you never know
Death it's so sudden
I'm knowing they would've been ready if they seen it coming
No morals at all suckers will kill you over nothing
Look at us still hustling though
I'm lost from all the losses I done took
My dogs got caught they wasn't cautious enough
So lost from all the losses I done took
Flowers on your grave
Money on your books
Every phone call got me shook
I know it's bad when it's ringing off the hook
My heart drops
I don't even want to look
I'm traumatized from all these losses I done took
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
From all these losses I done took
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
From all these losses I done took
Prison took the neighborhood away from us
Tried to send some money tried to stay in touch
Budder did a bid before he graduated
But if that dude was black they wouldn't have gave a fuck
Swift was on the band in our glory days
K-9 bit him when he took them on a chase
Back then it was funny we was young and wild
But this shit hit different because y'all got kids now
My dog Billy did a nickel
Did a bid before I met him just a victim of the system
Ain't too cool to say I missed him
To my growth was instrumental
Got me moving like I know it's near
Fuck dying losing freedom is my only fear
Yet and still I'm in traffic checking every mirror
Because if they pull me over I'm facing some years
Gotdamn
I'm lost from all the losses I done took
My dogs got caught they wasn't cautious enough
So lost from all the losses I done took
Flowers on your grave
Money on your books
Every phone call got me shook
I know it's bad when it's ringing off the hook
My heart drops
I don't even want to look
I'm traumatized from all these losses I done took
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
From all these losses I done took
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
My soul lost, I'm so lost
From all these losses I done took