I use to watch my momma drink her anger out
Overwhelmed by the struggle relieving stress
Uncle took our toys and bikes from the house
He drunk himself to death I hope in peace he rests
Auntie was on the same thing but she dove deeper
Granny said she's getting high I thought she meant reefer
If history repeats
Then this drinking I've been doing is way deeper than I think
When the pain rises my pride shrinks
Nobody taught me how to cope
All I know is when my momma took a sip she looked free
I was young and couldn't see that really she looked weak
From decades of abuse mentally and the physical
Liquor ain't as fun as I thought this shit is critical
Never witnessed therapy alcohol the medicinal
Another fight on a school night shit was typical
Proud of my momma because she left him
The way he talked to her I can't respect him
It could've turned ugly any second
But we're steady mixing liquor and depression
I've been in a funk
I've been getting drunk
I don't know what's next for me
Chasing my destiny
Mixing liquor with depression
We're still mixing liquor with depression
Ain't learned my lesson
So what I think about my progress while I pour up
I use to want to be alive when I grow up
I use to act an ass in class then got my ass tore up
Wanted attention so much
Another liquor store run slurring my wisdom
Cognac or depression either way it's dark in my system
Don't feel bad for me I never settled as a victim
Producing chances from my circumstances
Reducing damage gaining understanding
Like how to take a perfect shot
Then keep taking more shots until the hurting stops
Because everybody fell in love with the drunk Skip
This D'ussé makes me do and say some dumb shit
But they don't know the history so I can't fault them
Forever at a disadvantage that's a raw deal
Taking notes from adversity I draw skill
I'm bigger than my family curses let's all heal
I've been in a funk
I've been getting drunk
I don't know what's next for me
Chasing my destiny
Mixing liquor with depression
We still mixing liquor with depression
Ain't learned my lesson