I am searching for the silence, hear the sound of pouring rain An insisting voice of nature as persistent as my pain And I stare out of the window, see the rain clouds passing by A continuous alternation as unstable as my life It's this everlasting echo, it's this dreadful empty room It surrounds me full of memories and frustration conquers soon And why the hell I have to suffer when the wind speaks out your name And in my egocentric vision - psychologically insane I shed all my tears, alone in this world But the longer I weep the more it burns I whisper my pain, try to fill it with words But you took them away, that's why it hurts Read the last words that you left me 'cos there's nothing else to do Seems as if I hear your voice so I look up, but where are you Don't know how long I can stand this - still your perfume in our bed God, this emptiness will kill me if I'm not already dead When I think of bygone moments - yearning water in my eyes Still a lot I'd like to tell you, but I can not turn back time And why the hell I have to suffer in this cruel and unfair world And when the sun comes out to warm me it's still cold and still it hurts I shed all my tears, alone in this world But the longer I weep the more it burns I whisper my pain, try to fill it with words But you took them away, that's why it hurts Why did it slip away And in the end just memories Why did those blooming days discolour so synthetically How should I see with my eyes How should I know that all the things might die How should I start to realise - now I know How should I feel you'll leave me How should I know that I'm too blind to see How should I know it's too deep - now I know!