Fell asleep in my warmest clothes,
Safe in the knowledge it was summer back home.
Woke up next to a pile of rat shit,
Feeling like a pile of rat shit
With my ears ringing from weeks of shows,
Cities I can't remember, populated by people I don't know.
And I've never felt better or more full of hope
Never been so competently able to cope.
We went for breakfast at your parents' house,
I felt inspired by everything we spoke about
Electric letters for free, I send you while you sleep
Are coming back to haunt me now.
I miss the little sounds you make when you wake up
I miss the entire notion of waking up next to you
With her knotted hair tangled on the pillows that we share
And from here I can see my high school
And I can see my parents' house
Can see the people I grew up with
And the excuses I have buried them in now
And from here I can see my high school
And I can see my parents' house
Can see the people I grew up with
And the excuses I have buried them in now
And I don't deserve anywhere near this much
Sleeping in basements with all five of us
Waking up under mouldy blankets to scratches and coughs
Remember where the van is,
Find the van keys and fuck off.
And from nowhere I can see myself
Taking insults and not playing with others well
And first impressions run deep
But your memories of me
Will always be as unhealthy as say
You run clean
And I say I don't mind and that everything's fine
But its getting so hard to get my nose over the line
And I don't respect myself, so why should anybody else
I don't respect my self so why should anybody else
Think that what I'm doing is right
When it'd be just as easy to fuck around
And get high for the rest of my life.
And from here I can see my high school
And I can see my parents' house
Can see the people I grew up with
And the excuses I have buried them in now
And from here I can see my high school
And I can see my parents' house
Can see the people I grew up with
And the excuses I have buried them in now
And I don't deserve anywhere near this much
And I don't deserve anywhere near this much