It's almost like you had it planned Its like you smiled and shook my hand And said hey I'm about to screw you Over big time What was I supposed to do I was stuck in between you And a hard place We won't talk about the hard place But I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life. Its how you wanted it to be Its like you played a joke on me And I lost a friend In the end And I think that I cried for days But now it seems light years away And I'm never going back To who I was 'Cause I don't blame you anymore 'Cause its too much pain to store 'Cause it left me half dead Inside my head And boy looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life I think I cried for days But now that seems like light years away And I'm never going back to who I was I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life That life seems like light years away. Light years away. That life seems like light years away. Light years away.