Festering Make known the names of Deviances so Pushed aside by unwilling tides Sunshine as kryptonite Surrendering Come to terms with a chasm deepening Is the fight still in me? I've been matched With a face i can't see Momentarily alive I wanted to apologize For what I've done or what i haven't It's hard to decide Momentarily alive Is the grass greener on the other side? I catch glimpses From days i can manage to jump high to peek And somehow i'm colorblind Petulant Trivial attachments to arrogance Cognitive dissonance at its best Grown so damn tired of games and tests Why can't i rest Perpetually collapsing I can't let this happen In trying to take hold I loosen my grasping Self-saboteur The demons are laughing The echoes alone form the Ambience, transience Oh, clarity Hold me for a moment I just want to see The suffering and grief Mourning's quite A sight for sorry eyes Momentarily alive I wanted to apologize For what i've done or what i haven't It's hard to decide Momentarily alive Is the grass greener on the other side? I catch glimpses From days i can manage to jump high to peek And somehow i'm colorblind Seize all the moments you can The heart wants the good ones to last Generous tenderness heals Pay no mind to what love conceals I refuse to let go Ask me what for I am begging for more I'll continue to walk on the sores The aches The breaks Just for a glimpse of the door So don't Have the nerve To ask me what for