I saw a boy turn into smoke Convinced myself I'm dreaming He gestured back shot a pointed glance At a cycle still repeating Oh it won't be easy Catie You just gotta try If you don't see yourself in me Just look in my eyes I knew a girl who took so much She couldn't stop the bleeding 19 years old with no map And a skill for self-defeating She's telling everybody she fucks That she doesn't feel anything when she gets touched And she's bargaining one more month Against one more drink or one more cut Yeah she's telling everybody she loves That it's their fault she isn't growing up Yeah she's telling everybody she trusts She's just having fun and they care too much Oh it won't be easy Catie You just gotta try Do you still see yourself in me When you wanna die I've been a girl who gets so choked up Every time she's speaking Pretends the awful things she put behind her won't be creeping up Again again again again Again again again again Again again again again Again again again Oh it won't be easy Catie You just gotta try You haven't been yourself lately What does it feel like If it was easy Catie You'd just follow the light Promise you'll never hate me Just to dull the bite